Tarot is a spiritual path. People in the tarot community know this, but people outside the tarot community often do not realize it. Like religion, tarot is (or can be) a spiritual compass, a tool for understanding our lives within a spiritual framework and for developing into a more compassionate and ethical person. But why have I chosen tarot (and reiki and other energy work) as a part of my particular path instead of choosing, for example, to enter a seminary and become a minister?
I feel it’s worth exploring this topic because many of the people around me don’t understand why I’m making some of the life changes that I am currently making. I don’t think many people realized that I was being called toward a spiritual life, as a vocation, or that I considered the path of the seminary and ministry. I was keeping those ideas to myself until I made a decision. Below are my reasons for choosing my current course of action instead. If you are a minister, rabbi, or lama yourself, don’t take this personally — I deeply respect your path and your life choices.
1. I am a nonbeliever in monotheism (though if you are a believer, I think that’s wonderful too). This may surprise people who have heard me say that I will keep them in my prayers. How can I be such a big believer in prayer when I don’t believe in God? You might find me referring to “the universe,” but I don’t mean God. I view the universe as diverse, full of multiplicity. So I believe in buddhas, bodhisattvas, angels, etc., and I believe in the power of prayer, but not in one God. I still might, someday, opt for a Buddhist seminary, but I could never enter a monotheistic one. For those of you who scoff at tarot and yet still believe in a single all-knowing, all-powerful God, I have to wonder what your thinking is. Frankly, people who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones. Though not everything I believe can be verified scientifically, we do know scientifically that the world is diverse and that many aspects of reality are not visible to the naked eye. To me, the idea that fairies might exist seems like far less of a fairy tale than the existence of a monotheistic God does. If you believe in God, please don’t misunderstand me: I’m not making fun of your beliefs, just saying that I find your beliefs as implausible as you find mine. Of course, I will still respect those beliefs. Will you respect mine?
2. I will never be a preacher. I don’t have the personality for spiritual leadership. I have more the personality of a craftsperson. I believe in ethics and morality, but I don’t believe in judging people, or in telling them what they should do (even when I KNOW what they should do, I think they should come to that decision on their own). I won’t preach a sermon. It’s just not my personality. My role is to offer support, comfort, balance, and calm, to help the people I work with to become grounded and centered and to feel empowered to make their own good choices. Like the work that ministers do, my work is based on spiritual beliefs and a serious set of ethics, but I’m not remotely interested in leading a congregation. I’d rather get to work making an offering. If you are the leader of a congregation, I think that’s wonderful and hope you continue in that role. It’s just not for me.
3. Tarot is interactive, and that appeals to me. I have plenty of faith. I’m full to the gills with it. Yet, I still crave a practice that allows me to touch base with the spiritual side of life regularly. I like the regular reassurance of asking the cards a question and being certain to receive an answer that, though it might not be the answer I wanted, will still be sure to steady and ground me.
Prayer and meditation are interactive, too (by interactive, I mean, interactive with the spiritual side of life), and so is energy work. And you can do all that and be a minister and not a tarot reader. So what’s the difference? I guess it’s that the messages from tarot come through stronger and seem more unmistakable, to me. Tarot gives the universe a chance to deliver messages that are more pointed. Though that’s not to say that the universe can’t find non-tarot methods for delivering strong messages as well.
4. When I think about going back to school, I feel like the angels are rolling their eyes at me. More education seems like a cop-out, a procrastination strategy, when the world needs more spiritual workers right NOW. For me, going back to school would be a shy person’s strategy for hiding out and delaying having to talk to people in the real world. My Buddhist name translates as “lake of dharma,” and the truth is that my wisdom — my dharma, if you’re comfortable calling it that — should be offered to others, not hoarded in my hermit’s cave. I don’t mean that as an arrogant statement. Groundwater, lake water, rainwater, whatever kind of dharma is in the well — I didn’t make this wisdom, I’m just collecting it and sharing it. I am merely pulling up buckets of wisdom out of my well and offering them to whomever may find them useful or helpful.
5. Tarot is accessible. Many people who want spiritual support either are nonbelievers, like me, or are believers who aren’t members of a congregation and/or who can’t get the support they need from their formal congregation. There are lots and lots of people out on the margins of society who don’t want to be organized in a group, especially when it comes to their spirituality. Those people need sustenance for their spirits as much as churchgoers do.
6. This path chose me. I didn’t really have much of a choice in the matter! And if you don’t understand that, I can’t explain it.
Now I’ll probably get yelled at by people on both sides: atheists and secularists upset with me because I don’t think tarot is a joke, and religious conservatives predicting lightning is about to strike me (it never has before, but we’ll see!). Oh well. That’s what happens when you try to pick a spot that is in the middle and on the margins, both, at the same time!
“Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself. I am large, I contain multitudes.” –Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass
Quiet Mystic 
My biggest anxiety in posting this is that people will think that (or will imagine that I think that) all tarot readers are nonbelievers — of course that isn’t true at all, as tarot readers come from all faiths, so far as I can tell.
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Thank you so much for this posting. I am wrestling with the very same thing – Tarot vs. religion, and your writing is very helpful. Tarot readings, for me, seem to cast aside the chatter of my logical brain, and they help me get to the deeper meanings.
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Thanks–I know that feeling of my logical mind getting in the way. I might write a few more posts on related topics, as this one seems to have touched a chord with quite a few readers…
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Well done. My father was a Methodist minister. I had intended to follow in his footsteps, except, while I believe in spiritual community I do not believe in Abrahamic mythology as anything other than symbolic mythos. Kinda hard to be a Methodist minister under those circumstances.
So now tarot is my ministry.
My Dad once said to me “I respect what you do, and I mean no offense, but I sure wish you were using your skills and abilities for us; we could use your talent.”
I said, “Thank you, but the people I serve also need my talents, and I am better suited to serve them.”
Good for you for hearing your calling. You will be a blessing to your community.
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Christiana, I replied in a hurry earlier and just realized that I recognize your name–I just downloaded Fortune Stellar to my Kindle yesterday and then, today, happened onto a recording of a Tarot Guild class that you taught! Small world…but I guess that shouldn’t surprise me! Anyway, thank you again for your encouragement.
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Hey – thanks for supporting Fortune Stellar, and the Tarot Guild! Small tarot world, big tarot hearts!
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I think this is wonderful, Bonnie! Very well said 😉 Let go of the anxious feelings — YOU don’t have to apologize to anyone for your beliefs! Others need to apologize for being hypocrites, bullies, or whatever true colors they have showed by their comments to you. Something I have been learning a LOT over the past few years is quit saying “I’m sorry but …” First off, I really am NOT sorry (in most cases that I find myself saying those words) and second, saying “i’m sorry” is like giving up part of my power. At least that is how I see it!
I say ROCK ON SISTER FRIEND!!!!
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I don’t think anyone is bullying me per se–it’s more subtle than that. So far! 🙂 But thanks and, your suggestion about not apologizing is well taken. I do a lot of that myself!
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Very well said Bonnie~I’ve been struggling too with similar concepts and anxieties. I want to help people as well, and Tarot is what I love, understand and enjoy. Thank you so much for sharing your heart…L&L~
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Thank you, Lisa!
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Thank you everyone. I was amazed to see all three of these comments come in within the same 30-minute period–couldn’t reply at length then because I was on my way out the door, but I was very touched by your encouragement. Thank you thank you thank you! You guys rock on, too… 🙂
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This is really interesting to read, because I love and work with Tarot and at the same time I’m thinking about the (Unitarian/pagan-style) priestess in me! I think there’s more one-on-one connection and room for variety to that path than you think, but it doesn’t matter – asking why you didn’t become a minister is like asking why you didn’t become a social worker because Tarot readers are performing a kind of counseling. Everyone has their own unique calling, and that just means we can ALL reach more people!
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That’s a good point, Kim, and I could even spin it out further–why didn’t I become a professor of literature since I love to interpret symbols (and even have a background in literature), or why didn’t I pursue philosophy (actually I did for a while), or…and you’re right, it could go on and on! Thanks for the comment!
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Ugh, I tried to post the comment and it wouldn’t let me because of some wordpress thing. jkfjdal;fjsa
I wanted to thank you for sharing this. I’ve been struggling with the EXACT SAME THING for a while now, although I ended up choosing differently, I really understand what you’re feeling/have felt. Thank you so much for posting & sharing your thoughts with us.
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Thank you–I didn’t know so many people would relate to this, but I’m glad. I’m sorry about the WordPress problem–not sure what is going on, but you’re not the only one who has had trouble posting.
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Interesting. I am a card-reading and cartomancy teaching pagan who has been on the path for more than 30 years, and I have actually been strongly considering becoming either a Licensed Unity Teacher or an Interfaith Chaplain. People unfamiliar with CUUPS or Unity often find that statement completely flummoxing, but there is no actual conflict of interest. I am not a Christian, and I am not pretending to be; I am simply looking for the best way to serve and stay out of jail, LOL. The laws in many parts of this country make it difficult to do without some kind of credentials along those lines.
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Wow, thanks for sharing your story. Please feel free to add some information here about CUUPS and Unity–I’m not familiar with them myself, at all, and am curious! Thanks again!
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I could have written this myself, for the most part. I wasn’t involved in CUUPS when I was going to Unitarian Universalist congregations in the States, but I found UU congregations very helpful in learning to navigate my spirituality and religious beliefs in a rather narrowly focused society (i.e., the Bible Belt). UU helped me come to a sense of balance and understanding of Christian teachings; they were presented matter-of-factly alongside wisdom from other belief systems, including secular thought.
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Thanks for the comment, Misty. Now you’re the second person who has mentioned CUUPS–I’m getting curious! 🙂
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Beautifully written. 🙂
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Thanks!
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Hi!! I’m a follower of Jesus, but don’t like to use the word “Christian” since it has become associated with so many things I don’t believe and seems to have been used throughout the ages to commit such acts of hatred. I also think if Jesus were on earth today, He wouldn’t want to be called a “Christian” either!! 🙂 For a while in my early 20s I lost my faith and tried tarot cards. They WERE eerily accurate, for sure!! I did find my way back to my God after a few years of searching other avenues. I do have a question for you, if you don’t mind. I’m confused and would appreciate any clarity you can offer. Do you believe the actual cards are giving you the answers you (or others) seek? Because of other statements you wrote, I am wondering if that’s what you mean or do you mean the Universe is sending you (and others) the answers through the cards? Also, when you use the word “Universe” are you referring to a “who” or a “what”? I’ve heard people use that word before when they are referring to a “Higher Power,” so I’m wondering what Universe means to you. Thank you!! — Kathy
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Wow, I’m getting a lot of comments that inspire me to write new blog posts today — I’m going to have to set up a calendar to keep track of the new blog post ideas! Your question definitely makes me want to write a new post — I had been thinking of doing one anyway, on the question of “does it matter if you believe in tarot?” My post when I write it will give you a more detailed answer. but for now, here’s the short version: No, I don’t believe my answers are from the cards per se. I think readings could be done with all sorts of printed matter and even objects. For example, many Christians practice bibliomancy, asking a question, and then opening the Bible to find a passage that will offer insight about the question. If you are looking for an answer to a question, another approach is to pray for an answer, and then look around you to see what your attention is immediately drawn to and consider whether that object, whatever it is, might give you an answer — or pray for an answer and then note what things your attention is drawn to ALL DAY, for a more detailed reflection.
What I do think is that subtle energies in the present moment affect what cards are drawn (or what passage or page you end up on in cases of bibliomancy). I think there’s something going on magnetically when a card is pulled — that somehow a card comes up that is magnetically attracted to the question or the reader or the querent. However, since I’m also a science writer, I have to clarify that I’m using the word “magnetically” not in its scientific sense. I don’t know that the energy in question has to do with electromagnetism, although it may. I’d like to see what scientific research on this might turn up. We do know from scientific research that prayer can have subtle effects on a person’s health and that people who are prayed for, even if they don’t know they have been prayed for, do better (in a statistically significant way) in recovering from heart surgery, for example. So I do believe that there is energy that we can interact with whether we interact with it by sending positive energy to others through prayer, or by asking questions and trying to receive some form of universal guidance.
Do I believe the universe is sending me answers through the cards? Yes, in two ways — one, in the sense that I’ve described above, but also, I believe in angels and buddhas and bodhisattvas, and I believe that these beings can help us if we ask for help — so although I don’t believe in ONE god, I believe that the nature of the universe is goodness and that there are all sorts of beings that have dedicated themselves to helping others — and one way they can help is by helping us to find answers when we ask. So I think that angels etc. can interfere with the energies that are involved in pulling cards and help a reader to interpret cards that are pulled. But, having said that, there are Christian tarot readers who believe that God directs what cards are pulled, and that’s certainly a legitimate view and one that I respect.
Also, I strongly feel that one’s motivation/intention when pulling the cards is vitally important, and so is being open to possible answers (here’s where meditation and prayer become very important). Also, I don’t think the cards give us ONE answer. The nature of the universe is multiplicity. So we get, usually, multiple answers, all of which may address different aspects of a situation (and some of which may even be wrong or off-base, it happens).
I hope this helps! Obviously I need to blog about this because there’s a lot to say! 🙂
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Another way of looking at this is that all forms of divination really are ways of getting in touch with your intuition, or messages from your subconscious. You know the answer to any question that you might want to ask, but how can you get in touch with that knowledge? That’s why tarot and other forms of divination can be very useful and practical. And that’s why psychologists sometimes use tarot even if they don’t believe in it on a spiritual level.
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WOW!! First, thank you for replying. Secondly, I again say, “Wow!” because I had no idea about all this!! I most certainly never ran into anyone who looks at tarot this way when I was lost and searching. Although we believe differently, I can see the similarities in how I use prayer and wait upon the Holy Spirit to tell me the answer through an idea, a feeling, someone else suddenly calling me and giving me the answer I need, etc. You and I may be going down completely different pathways, but we’re still trying to achieve some of the same goals. I think that says a lot about humans who are trying to stay on a good pathway for their lives versus those who have chosen an evil way of life — hatred, pain, manipulation, control, abuse, etc. I asked you for clarity and you’ve given more than that: I knew some people use the Bible the way you described, but never knew it had a name (Bibliomancy); I NEVER heard of Christians using tarot cards — back in the day when I went searching for a pair I cannot tell you how many store clerks told me they were evil, so you can understand how my mind wouldn’t be able to wrap around the idea of “Christians” using them. That just wasn’t anywhere on my radar!! 😀 I understand your ideas of energies and most certainly motivation. My Bible tells me that God knows the motivations of our hearts, so it’s important for us to know our own hearts and be willing for Him to change us to the point where our motives are pure. This way when we seek to do good for others, it will be done with the right spirit.
I’m probably going to have to re-read your reply. It contains so much and once again I thank you for taking the time to write such a detailed response!! God bless you!!
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Thank you so much!! I appreciate your heartfelt reply and do think that we are on similar paths even if they are also different in some ways. I also really like what you said about changing “us to the point where our motives are pure.” I think that’s the key…to everything, pretty much!
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Hi Bonnie! Thank you for stopping by my blog. I was so pleasantly surprised when I followed the link to yours and discovered that we have a very similar philosophy. I’ve studied tarot cards off and on for the last ten years, although I don’t often read for anyone other than myself. I’m afraid I still am hiding in my hermit cave! I look forward to reading your posts.
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Thanks! I am in my hermit cave too–I really need to get out more and spend less time on the Internet and WordPress, lol.
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I really enjoyed this. I never really thought of Tarot in this way, as part of a spiritual path, but I can see how the cards could work that way. They help you become closer to your inner being.
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Thank you; I’m so glad you enjoyed this post!
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I really like how clear you are about yourself and your craft/kraft 🙂 I feel the same as you in some ways, but we differ in other ways, this is wonderful. I think the world would be so boring if we all felt the same way.
Thank you for checking out my blog 🙂 I really appreciate it 🙂 I really need to expand on myself and go out on a limb like you did. You have inspired me, my friend. Thank you!!!
I look forward to reading more from you 😀
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Thank you; I have been amazed and touched by how many people this particular post seems to have struck a chord with. I tend to be much more shy and reserved usually, so this is teaching me that it’s worth it to come out of my shell more and say what I really think. Thanks for the comment!! And I look forward to reading more from you too…as I’ve started reading everyone’s blogs I’ve been stunned by how much wisdom and wonderful writing is out there.
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Hi Bonnie – many thanks for following my blog – now that I have found you I want to immerse myself in your posts. I totally relate to the Tarot choosing you – it’s not something I would have seen myself doing but after many years of ignoring it, I have decided to let it float within. Great article!
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You are welcome, and thank you for your kind words and the link back. You’ve certainly given my self esteem a shot in the arm this morning! Thank you.
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I have just read your post and I had to reply – because I am a Tarot Reader, but Im also an Ordained Minister – im a Reverend with the CCHA so, this means, yes I do beleive in God and Jesus and all that stuff, but actually the Tarot is a tool… and as you say, its a compass – and a good, and honest one, at that! I totally agree with your post, in fact I would say its inspired! I do beleive the Universe is important, and I also think we are all entitled to our ways of thinking.
Incidentally, the CCHA allows us to be mediums and do healing as well as ministry, so its interesting all round, LOL! 🙂 lovely post!!!! thank you !!!!
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Thank you, and thank you also for pointing out that it’s possible to do both (tarot and ministry). I think a couple of other people have mentioned the CCHA to me…I may have to try to find out more about that.
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment!
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Thanks for following my blog. Cheers,
Rita
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You’re welcome; thanks for the comment!
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I am an Episcopalian and I use Tarot to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit. My priest reads Tarot as well! Thank you for this post, pointing out the spiritual side of Tarot. We are all tapping in to the same force, no matter what language we use for it.
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You’re welcome; thank you so much for the comment. I love to hear everyone’s stories.
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Thank you for the follow! Good luck with your spiritual path — your About page reminds me very much of a friend with whom I lost contact years ago, when she was about to begin a Master’s degree in comparative religion. She was a tarot adept — every bit as skilled at reading the sitter as the cards — a Wiccan, and very much in touch with her spiritual side. I envy that “groundedness” to a certain extent, but my own spiritual path runs along different lines.
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You’re welcome; and thank you for the comment — I always appreciate hearing everyone’s points of view.
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Oh my! We have such amazingly similar feeling about SO many things! Thanks you for finding Skydiaries so I could find you!!!!
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You’re welcome…I’m glad you found me too! 🙂
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Thank you for stopping by Inkspeare and may you follow a path to enlightment, creation, and spirituality, whichever that path might be for your unique soul. Blessings.
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Somehow I missed this comment earlier–but thank you!! 🙂
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I’ve “tagged” you!! Sorry!! 😀 Please go to my post at http://bipolarandbreastless.wordpress.com/2012/06/29/ive-been-tagged/
(I don’t know how to make that into an actual link that you can click onto. I can do it in my posts, but not anywhere else!! Sorry!!) I hope you’ll have fun with this!! If not, please forgive me!!
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I came back because I forgot to sign my name and found that it did turn into a link!! Will wonders never cease!?! –Kathy
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Thanks, Kathy–yes, the link works just fine! It does look like fun but it might take me a while to get around to it — I am in the middle of finishing a move today and am trying to get a couple of blog posts out first — but, maybe in a few days once the dust settles… 🙂
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I work with a clairvoyant, who also reads tarot, who is also the most spiritual person I know. We come in all shapes and sizes. Thank you for sharing with us.
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You’re welcome–thank you for your comment!
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Very deep, very compassionate, very respectful, and very … intuitive!! Thanks for following http://heifer12x12.com — I can’t wait to be in touch with you!
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Thank you so much for your kind words! I thought I had followed you, but it looks like WordPress thinks otherwise, so I’m going to go and try again to follow you now… 🙂
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Bonnie,
I love this piece. I think it speaks not only to the tarot vs. ministry worlds, but also to those of us whose paths in life are to embrace the spiritual space that exists within both the sacred and the secular. It is my on-going work as a writer, yoga teacher and yoga&writing workshop facilitator to dance between these two lands, and to create the forum for others to tap into their innate grounding spiritual selves, all the while never forgetting my own spiritual roots that ground my work, my path, and my humanity in my day-to-day living.
I too also feel that the world is in a massive spiritual crisis right now, and the Lady Quan Yin that lives inside of me, the one who “hears the cries of the world” at times feels overwhelmed by all the work to be done. But the strength of community that exists within the collective forces of those recognizing this need, and doing this work, is profound.
Thanks for finding me and my blog.
Nama,
~Lindsey
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Hi Lindsey,
Thank you so much for your very thoughtful comment. I also feel overwhelmed with all the work there is to be done — I wish I could just work all 24 hours of every day, and not sleep. I know balance is important, but it’s frustrating when you feel that there is so much to do — not just in the larger world, but also in the smaller world of taking care of a family. I’m still not sure what the answer is here–all I have been able to figure out is that if I don’t stay balanced, I won’t get anything at all done, so trying to burn the candle at both ends, so to speak, doesn’t help. Oh well. Thank you again for your comment, and I’m looking forward to reading more of your blog.
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Nicely written. Those who have only played with Tarot or who approach it from a sensationalist perspective don’t understand what it is and how it works. Your post, along with your responses to some of the comments here, provide a well thought out treatise on the use of the cards for personal insights. I’m also familiar with CUUPS, although I didn’t participate when I was a UU, and I think it is a great program.
Thanks for the follow, by the way. There are so many blogs out there that I might never have found yours had you not found mine. Peace.
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Thank you very much for the comment–I’m sorry that I didn’t notice it earlier. I appreciate it, especially since I’m learning as I go and just relying on my heart and intuition (as well as from the insights of others, of course) to lead the way. And you’re very welcome for the follow…I am glad that you found my blog as well. 🙂
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love tarot … confess to be spritual .. thank you for your follow
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You’re welcome for the follow…glad you took the time to comment, thank you!
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Aw, nicely said! Love the Whitman quote. Yes, we certainly do! 🙂
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Thanks for the comment…and I’m glad you liked the Whitman quote…I’m a big fan of his.
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Never thought of the Tarot as a spiritual path but it does make sense. I’m a picture oriented person and have just started studying Herbalism so I use the Herbal Tarot. The only other Tarot I use is the Faeries Oracle. Who knows where I’ll receive a message. Either from the Universe or Mengloth is a minor (but very potent) Norse goddess of healing. Or maybe both.
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Thanks for your comment! I have never heard of Mengloth–would be fascinated to hear more…
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I follow the Northern Tradition Paganism, the non-reconstructionist Neo-Pagan worship of the Norse/Germanic Gods. Here is the Website http://www.northernpaganism.org/
Mengloth (http://www.northernpaganism.org/shrines/mengloth/information/who-is-mengloth.html) belongs to the Jotun(Northern Giants). The book The Jotunbok: Working With The Giants Of The Northern Tradition by Raven Kaldera tells about them. Of course there are the famous ones like Odin Thor and the others that live in Asgard. I’ve always taken a different path and follow the Jotun.
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Wow, thanks for all the information! This will take me some time to digest, but I will definitely read through these sites, as I’m fascinated…
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Glad to help out.
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This completely resonated with me! I needed to read points 1 and 4 specifically right now. I am new to Tarot and Reiki and just coming to realize my path as a healer and spiritual guide. I must first come to understand my abilities and strengths more fully before I am completely useful to humanity, but I know that the more I work on me the more I am able to share with others. Thank you for sharing this. I’m so happy happy happy to have found your blog!
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I am glad you found my blog too! Your comments are making my day today! Re point 4 here, though I wrote that post a long time ago, it’s still a struggle. I feel like the universe is saying to me, “here, this is what you will do,” and I keep saying back, “but don’t I need more training? don’t I need to be better at it?” and the universe is replying, “you are just trying to get out of doing this, aren’t you?” 🙂
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I have a funny story to tell you. I feel the exact same way, asking “don’t I need more training!?” People have always come to me with their problems and I have always heard “you are so wise for your age…” I knew early on I wanted to work in the field of mental health. As a little girl I loved the movie Silence of the Lambs because I wanted to be Clarice! ha!
Anyway, I discovered the cards and fell in love and quickly began basically counseling people..when I realized what I was doing I felt unethical. After all, i’m supposed to have a degree for that! Even though I have a BA in psychology and philosophy I still felt guilty. LIke what business do I have poking around other peoples’ psyches!? So I decided to look into MAsters in Counseling programs, which meant I had to take the GRE. Well I signed up, studied a little (not enough though ugh..) paid the exorbitant fees and traveled two hours to take the damn test. Halfway through I realized I was sitting there miserable and totally lying to myself. I did NOT want to go to a school that required a GRE score because what does it really say about me? how can they tell from a score whether I’m meant to be a counselor?! So…I just started clicking. I zipped through screen after screen and left the testing area 2 hours ahead of schedule. I felt SO liberated. As valedictorian in high school and over achiever extraordinaire in college I felt SO LIBERATED! I spent the rest of the day running around at a park with hubby then we went to see Cloud Atlas, which I considered a gift from my guides fore getting the hell outta that testing facility asap! ❤
So here I am…a few months later. I have looked into courses in numerology. Getting a Tarot certification. It's like I require a piece of paper for me to believe in myself! Why?! Am I that trained by society? I do feel like I need a "teacher" but not one who requires money! That's sophistry! Anyway…it's so nice to connect with you over this, i hope my story made you smile. Much love sister.
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I can definitely relate to that story. Have actually considered going back to school for a degree in counseling–not so much because I think I’m unqualified, but really just to feel that I’m ethically allowed to be offering advice. But it does feel so silly to do that when I know what I NEED to be doing is studying spiritual stuff and learning more about energy work. I still think about going back to school, but sometimes now I think about a theology degree…I must have that same driving for a “piece of paper” that you do… 🙂 Thanks for sharing your story, it did make me smile.
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PS I feel the way you do in number 6 also! haha. And here we are talking about it…lol I love the Age of Information!
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me too!
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